I am aware that I have not written anything lately, but I been thinking and too much thinking is driving me crazy. I want to forget everything but I can't. There are certain memories that are to precious to me and I wonder why "this" didn't happen. When thinking about it, it seems to funny and sad at the same time because we didn't have the courage to take the next step.
 Well here it comes.
*** I am going to write this as a short story.

Wow!

      "Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued is always just beyond your grasp,
        but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
                                             Nathaniel Hawthorne
I read this quote and realized that for the past two years I have accomplished new obstacles that when beyond my limitations. I never thought that I was going to move on and think of whats ahead. 
In order to do this right, I need to start from the beginning and take responsibility of my actions. Due to my personality I tend to be clueless sometimes, specially about "things" that are obvious, but afraid of what the results might be. In occasions, I don't listen to my brain and follow my heart because I get anxious and worry if I don't do it.   Sometimes people say that life is a risk and we need to take changes (which I did) and enjoy. 

Im going to start a short story that was a turning point
due to actions I did.
YES probably it will be hard to start but now difficult.

 I been going into an adventure for about two years, I have no idea how it started, but one thing is for sure, time is going out and I need to make a decision.

  Maybe in the future things will change and I  will have the opportunity to see it once more.

Maybe it was a mistake letting you know about me
but I need to be honest
seeing you everyday makes me wonder if you feel the same way
if so how come you don't say anything
you act like everything is Okay
but I can't fake
I should be mad at you and nevertheless
your smile eraser everything
Yes, I know we might not see each other again
And I hope
I really hope that we never see each other again
that's all ..  

Quisiera decirle muchas cosas pero la verdad no entiendo cual es su problema. Que? tendria yo que adivinar que es lo que pasa? Yo si que me avente  tensando muchas cosas but I took the risk. I am confused by your behavior. but I understand I am not an idiot I get it.

we all need to make a decision, but it is so hard for me to make one.